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DIARY OF A MEMBER
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Stumbled upon this thing.
It's hard to be much more specific than that.
It's not quite a philosophy.
It's sort of about life. But there's also random stuff about learning..
It's definitely not a school. If it were I would run away from here and go find
it in a second.
It... and that's really the most specific pronoun I can use here... it calls
itself Learn Different.™
This all started when I stumbled upon a website. I was on a forum I frequent
and someone posted a link and asked if anyone knew what this was. No one did.
But I went to the webpage and then sort of lost track of time just... reading.
If you read through it all, the webpage claims the original source is a book.
It's not really a book book, but I found the thing they mean. The book claims
the original source was a set of text files that were posted on some version
control system (whatever that is) that I guess computer programmers use to keep
track of their code or something.
And when I finally figured out what all that meant and tracked down the thing
and got a hold of those text files and read through them, they just claim that
the first of it appeared on the same website back where I started.
I feel like I know these people so well. But I still have no idea who started
it or where it began.
The writing style is a bit hard to figure out.
It alternates between extreme humility and extreme bombast, and I can never be
sure if it's more than one person writing.
If I had to put it briefly, not how they describe themselves, but just how it
all comes together in my head it's like... okay, when you get down to it, a lot
of the worst things people do come from the psychology of how we treat
outgroups.
Whenever we try to make groups, they get kind of groupthink-y, and it usually
fucks things up in some way or another. At least a little, eventually. Doesn't
even have to be much.
But then that causes a kind of feedback, because once any kind of fuck-up is
there, even stuff that's not all that bad, then the group's out-groups suddenly
have something kind of embarassing to demonize the original group for -- and
being human, they do -- or at least some members of the out-group do, again it
doesn't have to be all that many. So out-group holds embarassing thing up to
the flames to demonize in-group, which naturally makes the original in-group
get more defensive, because how could you not when you feel like you're being
attacked from the outside, and then the whole thing spirals way the fuck out of
control.
So this group, whatever the hell it is, this thing that's sort of a school but
insists that it isn't -- I mean they do school stuff too -- but before the
whole school part, not like before as in the beginning of each school day, but
before as in like logically prior -- before the school part, if you read these
files, what they're basically doing is just clearing the ground by creating a
group dynamic designed to hack its own group psychology out of existence and
bond over *that*. Again, they never say that. But it's what the whole thing
does. Here's what i mean.
How do you beat the ugliest part of human nature if you can't be a utopia or
whatever and you can't escape human nature? Well, it's not actually that
complicated. They fucking figured it out, lol.
It's a group built on publically shaming... themselves... and with a culture
that places almost a cult-ish value on accepting the other. Like the most
unacceptable others. It's so weird i still can't get it straight in my head.
See like usually groups end up growing fundamentalists, and the way a group
fucks itself in the long term is that it's impossible to stay reasonable,
because these fringes set up a sort of insider peer-pressure dynamic where --
to be a more pure group member and like signal your loyalty to each other, you
say all the things the group was built on, but in excess. The fringes are just
the middle with the volume way fucking up loud.
And because every group no matter what its content is is just, like, humans,
and human nature always has that whole us/them psychology, its usually the case
that the middle has just a normal not so bad amount of in-group out-group
thinking, like team sports, where it's basically the same psychology as war or
whatever but not actually hurting anyone and its just fun, cuz sports, but
that's just the middle, and when the volume gets turned up way out at the
extremes, you've got a dynamic where the way you signal to your buddies that
you're a genuine group member is to be more and more volume of "us" and more
distant from "them," not your buddies, I mean the "other" them, fuck i'm
explaining this terribly, but like... that's normal groups right. that's not
the point. the point is how these people sort of break all that.
It's brilliant actually.
Just build a group whose entire in-group culture is based on shaming the group
itself in the most hyperbolic ways, while at the same time almost fetishizing
acceptance of "the other." And the more unacceptable the others are, the more
"culture points" or whatever you get for trying to understand where the
outgroup people are coming from and how they're like you. I mean they don't
track points or anything. But there's this thing called the game.
god, the game... it sounds so fucking dumb, but this game thing is literally
changing my life.
like people go around saying certain things are liberating, no fuck off,
nothing is as liberating as the game.
here's what you do: you just... i actually already said it... you just practice
and develop a kind of non-sexual fetish for learning about outgroups and all
the people you most hate... and the game is to basically come to their defense.
not publicly necessarily. just in private, in your mind. but then after a while
you almost cant help but to go a bit public. like youll notice yourself
defending individuals and groups in conversations with friends... groups you
just fucking hated like a couple weeks ago.
And the weirdest thing about all this is that the group -- the main one. Learn
Different™ I mean -- that's not even their thing. they're not some social
movement about acceptance and stuff. it's like its just a basic prerequisite of
human interaction for them. it's not what they're about. if they're anything, i
guess theyre mostly a school. I don't know why the hell they put those two
ideas together. Maybe it's just poor planning or something.
Anyways i've run out of stuff to read. i cant find any more.
I read through the whole damn circle of sources and got back to the start. I
don't know where to go because these fucking people are *ghosts*. And whenever
anyone writes anything about them, they make it sound like they all up and
vanished a long time ago.
I'd love to find one of these things though.
i wouldnt really know how to start one of my own.
how exactly does a person even get something like this started?
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